Posted by: Marguerite Nico | February 28, 2014

Discouragement will not be a lost opportunity

I don’t take rejection well. I hate being told “sorry, you’re not what we’re looking for.” It makes me re-think my assets and makes me wonder if I’m really good enough to do what I’m trying to do.

I recently received an email saying “thank you for your interest in xyz. At this time, you were not selected.” I’m now looking at it as a way of choosing to do one of two things-either get seriously upset and pout or move on and look at other opportunities. I’ve had my pout and have moved on. I have ideas as to why I wasn’t chosen, but those are being left in the dust. It’s not going to be something I’ll dwell on. I’ve had my moment of “Nobody wants me.” and am moving on. I’ll find what I’m looking for eventually.  If not, I’m going to be a happy person despite it.

I’m remaking my mindset about a lot of things. It’s time to take the bull by the horns and lead it where I want it instead of being led. So that one door closed. Another one will open at the right time. I just need to learn patience. Unfortunately for me, patience is not a lesson I like learning very well. I get angry. This time, however, I’m just at an “oh well” phase and am not getting upset about it. It obviously wasn’t meant to be, so I’ll just move on.

I’ll turn it into a positive.

 

 

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | October 19, 2013

Finding Happiness

I’ve spent a lot of time being envious of other people’s successes.  I haven’t focused on my own.  I don’t believe this makes me a bad person, just human.  I have decided that it doesn’t matter that there are four million other people in better shape than me out there.  I’m trying to join their ranks so I have to learn to be happy with my own successes and even the failures.

I have started and stopped and started exercise routines more times than I care to shake a stick at.  I am easily bored, so I stop doing things that bore me.  I have forgiven myself this because if I don’t, I’m just reinforcing bad habits, habits that make me resent everyone and their dog.  Every person, every human being, has their own unique things that make them “tick”.  I haven’t found my thing yet.  

I’ve got videos.  I’ve got people on the internet who try to remember to push me but they have their own lives and don’t alwasy remember.  I can’t count on them to push me if I don’t push myself first.  I just have to find that one thing. It’s called being happy and I need to find it myself.

 So today, I am giving myself permission to be happy with what I’m doing.  I’m not riding that Century I hoped to ride some day. That’s okay.  I’m young.  I’m not a fifth degree black belt.  Again, that’s okay.  I forgive myself for the “slip ups” I have daily.  I know I’m eating “bad foods”.  I know I’m not tracking religiously.  I don’t have an exercise journal.  I accept that.  I also accept that I do track when I remember, I do count my points when I remember and I do try to keep moving.

I joined a Texas community on the Fitbit site since I have a fitbit.  I am in friendly competition to get my mileage and steps UP.  I have a young lady who has been talking to me and telling me she’s coming after me.  I love it!  It’s great to have that sort of reinforcement.  I’m a desk jockey by day and a couch potato by night, but I don’t have to be.  I know I can move more and having this young lady telling me she’s going to get me is just what I need to motivate me to move.  I also got a “trophy” today for walking 750 miles since I got my Fitbit (that’s all three incarnations, since I washed one, wore one out and am on my third).  THAT is a success and I’m happy about it.

My happiness is going to come from within.  I’m happy that I do have a few people who are willing to check on me, to push me and tell me to keep moving.  I’m happy that I have lost “Only” 20 pounds.  “ONLY” for now.  I WILL lose more.  I just have to be happy and comfortable in my own skin before it’ll “click.

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | August 11, 2013

Find Your Strength – Then Surpass It.

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This site, Strong-Fit-Beautiful is highly inspirational. I love her posts because she usually posts things worth thinking about.

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Posted by: Marguerite Nico | August 11, 2013

Success and then some

I have been tracking faithfully on MyFitnessPal and somewhat faithfully on eTools, plus using a paper tracker so I can find where my issues are.  It’s amazing to see how many times I “overate”.  When I did, I found a surprise too–I lost weight!!   That was a huge surprise.  Even bigger was the fact that I am adding protein to what I typically eat–eating MORE and that’s been the key to my losses.  No, I’m not losing huge amounts (we’d all be scared senseless!) but I’m seeing some losses. 

This week, I didn’t eat as well as I should have and I saw a gain.  It was .8.  I didn’t freak out, I didn’t go ballistic and pout. I accepted it.  I knew, going in, that I’d probably see a gain.  Again, not a big deal. Gains and losses are part of the journey. I just have to knuckle down and refocus, remember to TRACK and keep it up.  I’m not confident enough in my abilities to know completely how many points something is.  Part of the key to success is being able to recognize this.  I’m working on it.

I have a week (well, four days) to work on eating right.  I also need to add in exercise because I want to start being more active.  I’ve made excuses and that’s all they are–excuses.  I’ve said “It’s too hot.” or “I’m too tired”.  Those are JUST excuses.  I can ride my bike for 30 minutes when it’s 100+ after work and I’m not going to melt.  Likewise, I can take shorts and a tee shirt, plus my sneakers and get in a 20-30 minute walk at work.  It’ll be movement.  I know someone who has a heart problem, who is out every single day, RUNNING.  If she can do that, I’m pretty darned sure I can get my lazy butt off the couch and “move it, move it.”  

I went to a bike shop  yesterday to find a good pair of cycling shorts because I DO want to start riding more.  Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to get any help because there were a bunch of super fit guys in there.  I need to learn to not let my insecurities get the best of me.  I need to learn to ask for help, especially when it comes to making sure I’m fitted out to be able to do what I eventually want to do, which is to try to ride with a cycling club. I like cycling enough that I’m thinking I’d like to try it.

 

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | July 14, 2013

Healthy eating–and starting over

I am finding that it is NOT easy to eat well.  It’s hard to make good choices that include vegetables, protein and essential oils.  I have yet to include a healthy oil in my food choices.  I AM eating more protein though.  That’s the key to this week.  More protein. I just have to make sure my choices are healthy proteins.  This means that I have to actually cook better foods. As part of the WW 360 program, there’s  “Success Handbook” that allows you to work with it to find your trigger points, motivation,  losses, etc. I am actually USING the book now!  I’ve had it for about 3-4 months but its been sitting on my counter.  Now I’m writing in it (it’s interactive) and thinking about my reasons for following Weight Watchers. I have always subscribed to the “you have to cut out fats/oils/sugars” theory, although I didn’t do well with the “cut out sugars”.  In reading the success handbook, in talking to my Leader, I’ve actually learned a bit.  You can’t cut everything out (that was the topic of the last Meeting, too!).  If you do, you binge.  That’s always been me.  Fad diets?  Yep.  I’ve tried ‘em.  High protein/low carb (think pre-Atkins).  Yep, tried that too.  South Beach diet?  Been there.  Lost weight on the HP/LC but because I didn’t stick with it, I gained it all back, with friends. I want my weight loss to “stick”.  I have struggled my entire life with diets that didn’t work.  I was never taught about portion control.  I have worked on that recently.  I now measure things like peanut butter.  One tablespoon is a LOT. You wouldn’t think it would be, but it is HUGE. I have joined and quit WW more times than I care to count.  I tried going it alone several times, but fizzled out in ’00 and again in ’02.  In ’03, I started up in Martial Arts, so was working out, but didn’t really count points.  I don’t believe I ate correctly then, but because I was working out three hours a week, and Saturdays, I managed to lose some weight.  Before my black belt testing started, when I was around green to red belt, I started up on WW again. I actually attended meetings.  I lost/gained/lost but had impetus to keep going.  Then I got sick for a week with Strep, lost huge (you can’t really eat if your throat hurts).  I didn’t gain it back, amazingly.  I randomly followed WW, but left the program while I was training for my belt test in September. I managed to lose and kept most of the weight off.  I was never “tiny” at best.  I gained and lost and gained and lost. I re-joined WW last August, so it’s been almost a year now.  August 16 is my year anniversary.  I have really only lost 12 pounds in that year.  I became annoyed, frustrated and more frustrated. In the past two months, I’ve seen gains.  Was NOT pleased with myself.  I finally decided to ask for help.  I couldn’t keep seeing gains. I started tracking (on MFP only, but recently again on WW and on paper).  I asked my leader for help.  She said I had to count the points, but she didn’t say I absolutely HAD to use eTools.  I am using them so that I can count my points.  I will not give up WW…I will be successful.  I can feel it.  Maybe this week will be a good one. I am not happy about my gains, but there it is.  I gained.  I am not “the biggest loser”.  Not yet, anyway.

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | July 6, 2013

July, 2013

July, 2013

This is a lake I have access to on a regular basis. I pass it every time I go out on my bike.

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | July 6, 2013

Getting dizzy isn’t fun

I’ve had a couple of bouts of “positional vertigo” recently that have knocked me flat. I noticed a couple of weeks ago that my shoulders were stiff and painful and then my right shoulder started to hurt.  On Monday and Tuesday, I woke up in the morning and had to wait for the room to stop spinning.  That was not a pleasant experience.  I finally broke down and went to my chiropractor, who adjusted my neck and the vertebra in my upper back.  I was dizzy turning over, so we waited that out.  He then adjusted my neck more and helped me sit up.  That was horrible. I am not a big fan of being ill and yet, ill I was. It took almost ten minutes for the room to stop spinning on me. Needless to say, I moved very slowly after that.

I did a cardio workout on Thursday–the room was NOT spinning that morning, which was a miracle in and of itself.  I was a bit on the grouchy side but I figure that was from the family being home and nobody wanting to do anything. 

Yesterday, I did another workout and wound up being dizzy when I went down to the floor.  The only thing I can think of was that I was doing crunches (with my hands behind my head) and maybe I put too much pressure on my neck.  One of my good friends, who is like an older sister to me, suggested that I check my sugar levels.  I probably should.  She also recommended that I make sure I’m getting enough electrolytes.  My mission today is to find a source for natural electrolyte replacements. I found a link on the “Mother Nature Network”, so I’m going to see how that works.  Need to see if I can find “unrefined salt.”  Anyone know what that is?

I’m open to suggestions, so if anyone has any suggestions about things I can try for electrolyte replacements, please let me know.

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | June 28, 2013

Frustration

I weighed in last night and was UP another .2.  Now I know I’m not the most conscientious eater.  I do eat things that I “shouldn’t eat”.  I eat salt on my pasta.  I eat chocolate (love my chocolate!!).  I eat cakes and cookies upon occasion too.

So when I weighed in and it was up, I went nuts.  I’ve been faithfully documenting my food intake.  I’m NOT hiding it.  I don’t use the eTools that I’m paying for, but I use MFP and I’m USING IT!!  I’ve checked in and logged my food daily for a month.  What I’m seeing and my consciences (you know who you are!!) are seeing is that I eat too much sodium.  Processed food, crap like that.  My dear friend, S, recommended I make my own goodies.  She said she knows people who do and they’re happy and not whining about their weight like I am.  (She never said I was whining, I did, because I am.)

MFP is a habit I’m not likely to break now that I’ve been doing it for over a month.  I need to add in eTools now and do that religiously.  I need to get in those important things like oils (olive, canola, something–in my oatmeal?  Ummmmm. I’ll think about that!!  You’re suggesting that to a hard headed mule, I’ll have you know!!)  and my multivitamins in.  I carry them to work, but what’s the point of that if you don’t take them?

The point of this blog isn’t to sit and say “oh poor me, I’m not losing weight, feel sorry for me.”  It’s to say, “Okay, you aren’t eating healthy foods, you need more veggies (need a tracker for that, thank you MFP!!) and you need to keep exercising.”  I  *have* added exercise into my daily regime.  I have a new Beachbody DVD that I love because it’s kickboxing and is lots of fun! In fact, I didn’t do it yesterday, so I get to do it today.

I asked someone if I could go walk with her on Sunday. 7 1/2 miles..  I think that makes part of the 5k’s you wanted me to walk in 2 weeks, K.  I’ll do it!!

So check with me in a couple of days and see if I’m actually walking the walk.  I need accountability and I need a quick shove in the back.

 

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | June 9, 2013

Tossing ideas around

I’m not a runner, but I’m considering taking a class to train me to run a 5k in 6 weeks.  I have told people repeatedly that I am “allergic” to running.  I don’t like the pain my poor knees feel when I’m running, but I’m guessing it’s because I’ve been hauling around a lot of extra weight for a long time. I’m working on that.

My daughter wanted to join a “Zombie run” and be a zombie. I’m thinking that I have no intention of being a zombie, so I’d be one of the runners.  Unfortunately, the run was on June 1st and she didn’t ask me to join her in this until May 28th.  Breathe a sigh of relief.  (whew!) I knew we wouldn’t be able to get ready for that.

Now I’m randomly checking out available 5k’s.  I’m not actively planning a run–I still have to figure out how to get into a class to learn how to run.  I’m pretty sure that a couch to 5k program would be MUCH better than running outright and hurting myself right off the top. The fact that I’m thinking about it means that the idea is there.

I’ve also contacted a local bike shop and asked them if they had a “cycling for complete newbies” group.  I’m actually more interested in riding a bike than I am in running.  Part of it is because the riding is so much easier on most of the body (except maybe my bum!). I love seeing peletons riding up the road in the mornings on Saturdays. That’s an awesome sight. I would love to be part of that, but know that I’m not in the kind of shape I imagine they’d need or want. That’s my mind and I’m tossing that mental image out of my head.  I am not going to go to that place again and say “I can’t do that.”  I AM going to do something. My husband is encouraging me to do something I like to do.  He is worried about my physical being and doesn’t want me to be discouraged by running and he mentioned that I could potentially stop due to joint pain.  However, the cycling, he is more than happy to encourage. That’s what I need…that encouragement!!

So, do you have any thoughts? Do you like cycling or running?  What would you recommend?

Posted by: Marguerite Nico | May 31, 2013

Starting over, only better

I gained. I weighed in last night and found out that I gained.  I was pissed.  I wasn’t just pissed, I was massively pissed. I still am, however, it’s nobody’s fault but my own. I am the only one who can change this.  I had a long talk with my Leader and told her I wasn’t feeling the motivation.  I don’t have an anchor. We had an exercise a few weeks ago where we thought about what we could use as our anchor-the motivation to keep us on our path.  I couldn’t visibly come up with one. I got discouraged and frustrated. And I let other stupid, outside things bother me.  That’s not really me. I can’t be stupid like that.  I need to get over that and move on.

Fast forward to last night.  I told my Leader that I was unhappy and not feeling good about things.  She advised me to focus on the positives and not beat myself up over the negatives.  I am working on that. I may have found my anchor-my bike.  I posted a picture of it and am thinking that my goal to be able to ride up hills without stopping and walking may be my point of motivation.  I have what others don’t have.  I have good health.  I have reasonably good weather (even despite the humidity!). I have a supportive husband and the few friends who are there and keep pushing me to succeed. I will make it happen.

I don’t expect everything to happen all at once, but I do expect that I’ll be riding my bike every day of the week by the end of June. That’s a reasonable goal to set and achieve. I have to constantly remind myself that I am not other people.  I am myself.  If I keep trying to compare myself to others, I will be one highly unhappy person. Therefore, I am blocking out the negative thoughts I had about their successes (“Why can’t I be the one losing a billion pounds?” “Why can’t I spend my free time in a gym, working out?” “Why don’t I have the support system other people have?”)  I am not other people. This isn’t about them, it’s about me, and only me.

I’ve started over.  I’m using MyFitnessPal to document my food and exercise. I have a Fitbit to track my daily activity levels.  I debate on whether or not to spend another $35.00 to get a ActivLink from Weight Watchers to go along with my Fitbit.  That entails a $5.00/month subscription to upload my activity to eTools.  I haven’t justified that to myself yet. I will concentrate on one thing at a time. This week, my plan is to use MFP to document my food and activity. If you have an MFP account, you’re welcome to “friend” me.  The more friends I have, the more I’ll use it and do what I’m supposed to do, which is to document and make things work. Otherwise, just ask me if I’ve worked out.  That helps, believe it or not. Just send me a message and I’ll give you my MFP user name.

Speaking of working out…I’m doing a squat challenge with a friend.  Today’s total is 70. Tomorrow is 75, then 80.  Then we rest and go after it again with 80, 85, 90.  I think that’s how I read it.  7 sets of 10 reps. Otherwise I have to do 6 sets of 12 and that’s an odd number. Well, you know what?  Who cares? I’ll do it anyway, just to be difficult. I did find that it helped yesterday.  My mantra, while I was out on my bike, was “My legs are stronger. My legs are stronger.” My legs won’t be the only thing stronger.  My mind will also be stronger. As I work on my physical strength and weight loss, I’m also working on my mental health.  I need to ditch the baggage that says I’m not good enough.  I AM good enough. I am me and only me. I’m responsible for how I feel/what I do. I feel good and plan on keeping it that way.

 

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